MR - Mini reflection :)

Do you knw the feeling of sometime u just wish to get something done fast
( of cos w quality) and then go off ?

Either u want to clear ur work load
Fast,
Or u jus don’t wish to have anymore
Thing doing w someone who is w u.

Have u ever feel like a motion sensitive device?- let’s say auto light sensor.

Is like u wish to rest And don’t feel like switching on the light even if u sense someone is coming. But! You are a monitor sensitive device u can’t do this unless there is technical fault.
And! What’s more the person who is entering the room is someone special to you that u can’t resist. Even though u know you want to switch it off and
Rest but u just have the urge to turn on the light for that person.
So that the person can see and do things.
At the same time Hoping that person will take a look at how wonderful u work and look.

Do you ever have a feeling like you are holding a door. Sometime you dont know when to push or pull it?
Is like u know you want to back out, yet there’s another part of you wanted to hold back and remain positive? Hoping that you will get to the direction u wishing for. At the same time, u knw there is someone else waiting to pull/push the same
Door too. To prevent fight or rather to maintain peace you have the urge of just let ur hand off and wishing that special one will come to u and hold ur hand but not Stare at one side thinking to go to u or to that person to ask that person let off the hands.

Girls after all are girls- emotion creatures.
But all they need is just security. they want to feel secure. Speak words w actions to secure them. Sometime a simple sentence, a little action that seems nth will actually touch the tiny soul in their heart.a simple direct sentence,
A simple ans of yes or no w ur truest reason can simple stop them from thinking a lot.

Was chatting w mama abt those stuff.
She commented and judge based on her instinct and superficial stuff.

Is kinda hurting, I know wad she mean
Actually. Oh well, got which parents
Don’t love their own child and want
Their child to be bless And happy? Yea; what she said is hurting cos is nasty and kinda negative.
But deep in my Heart I know she do love me. The negative comment is discouraging. But deep in my
Heart I was telling and praying to God

" God I trust in u. This are all earthly saying. U are a God who makes all things possible. So what even if even my parents say I can’t make it? But God u didn’t. In fact, u said ask and it will be given to u. Seek and u will find. Knock and The door will be open . W God, nth is impossible"

So Father, I pray and I pray. Be it the judgement that my mama made is right or not, I believe and have the faith that … That per can Chg and transform under u. That per will be mould into clay and be of good workmanship. I believe God will speak to him and let him know what’s going on.
I pray and I pray God will show me to the thin unseen yet and turn the whole situation around.

Nevertheless, I needa be on safe guard. I have vow w me, I need to be obidient to God this time!

A magical moment take two hands to clap.
How do u enjoy and feel magical momement when you are alone?
That would be boring and meaningless.
Good moment, share w someone then and get one more ppl to laugh and share the joy w u.

Was chatting w a gf over dinner time.
I realized my heart getting more and more open towards it.
As I was sharing my doubts, what I’m fear of, I realized something.

Beautiful moment do happen always, it depends on how u prolonged it. And if u can’t, then put it deep inside ur heart and rmb it once happen. Rmb u once exp it. Make it into a beautiful history of ur life :)

If can, I want to hold unto the magical moment a little while. I don’t know if another hand is clapping.
But I know I want to cherish it.
The magical moment just feel like i am ” lost in a rythem so right”- can’t fight the moonlight.
Omg, I can’t believe it. I have been hearing this song these few days…
And I even get to hear it when I’m in Malaysia supermarket.

I feel that God wants me to try this new exp - move slowly,build it up gradually and go w the flow.Stop moving quickly like before.

Once again,the first magical moment that ans my prayer abt balancing and first time feeling at the right degree of 25 degree. ( read last 2 posts for more)

If all along, the other hand is not clapping then There’s nth I cld do too.
All I can do is to smile; and seek for God direction
And praying I won’t fall too deep. Instead, let that feeling maintain at where it is now. Unless the other hand is clapping.
And also just hold onto the magical feeling moment for a little while more.. Just a little while more :)

I thank God for these wonderful chances that I had always desire to try out. I could have choose to say no sometime, but I choose
To say yes even though I am reluctant. Cos I know I’m still young I wAnt to try things and learn to step out of my comfort Zone.

I know all these process is just training me to speak up, and get to expose different situation. Most
Importantly is God moulding me like a clay. Keep shaping me, and add colours unto me that I can be of good workmanship.

Clay and gold. Which one u choose to be ?

Stuff, made of gold is present out only during special event.
Clay, keep moulding and shaping to different uses.

Magical Magnetic Moment.

Its been so long since i got this magical feeling running in me.
Is amazing.
For the first time feeling this familiar yet stronger than before.
It is still stay within me, as if it is still happening to date.
The magical feeling is so light, so bright.

I did an analyze of this magical feeling.
Currently, yea, is magical moment hence of cos is towards a positive feeling.
However, if the next step is wrong then the magical feeling is pointless; it will just be no difference from illusion. It will just be like awaken from a dream, the min you woke up everything is vanish.
Leading to a unpleasant feeling, and you wished it never happen before.


If the next step is right, this magical feeling will definitely stay on , and greater things will be coming.
there will be no limitation, it will go beyond the sky. The sky aint the limit, when there can be someone stepping on the moon.

Again, if the next step is nth. Nth happen at all.
Then It will just be like the firework stick on hand, colors of flame sparkling dancing and then eventually it will died down.
However, the process when we are holding the firework stick on hand, it bring us that moment of smile. Watching the sparks and dancing of the colorful flame touch the little soul in your heart. Cos as you realized this little thing can bring a smile on your face,for that moment you will be wondering how simple and easily contented life can be.
Cherish it, and keep it in heart. Remember you once feel this way before.

It’s really magical, cos even though i felt it before, but those moment at that time doesnt give me a realistic feeling. It feels as if like is totally in a dream; alright, in another word too good to be true.
Amazingly this time round, is different. Is at the right level, right degree of 25 degree.
Not too hot, not too cold, just nice
Not too dreamy, not too realistic,again, it just all just nice at the temperature of 25 degree.

Lastly, because of this magical feeling my heart is opening up and see another new direction again. It seems like it is the key to open up my heart.
Hence, i pray to God… let it either stay on and watch over it, send angels to assist this path. or let nth happen at all; at least i wont be disappointed and i know i can keep this good magical feeling deep down inside my heart, and remember that there once this magical feeling that open a new door in my heart.

I believe and I have the faith the it will be either one.

Thank for giving me this magical moment :)
Thank God, i pray for opening up my eyes to the things unseen and ears to the things unheard yet. amen :)

Teaching!
Happy belated teacher day!! 

Was sharing w my friends abt my teaching exp w my students and it kinda brought me back to many memories…

I don’t like teaching, many ppl know this. But I did it cos is a good earning source , of cos I still teach with right attitude cos I don’t wish to ruin their future education :x

Miracle-ly, I don’t since when it started… The dislike feeling I had for teaching become neutral and slowly I even think of Different ways and games to teach the kids.
In short, slowly becoming to like teaching.

I guess is the kids grades, and their attitude that changes my attitude in teaching.
They are willing to learn, although lazy at times.
Their good improvement grade of A and B motivate me to teach them even more. 
My student told me before, ” don’t need to get me a present, cos is expensive and is what I should do too” I can’t rmb the exact line, but is something along those line/

Really need to thanks to that 2 kids in the photo. Their attitude, improvement grades and their cute character kinda change my perception in teaching :))

I got reminded how blissful I was in my school days even up to now.
From pri to sec and even to poly life now.: every year every sem. I nv fail to get a teacher who is always there for me ans guide me patiently.
I’m really one lucky gal!
In  pri sch days, a teacher encourage us.. And give us a bookmark with Winnie pooh cartoon on a boat written ”   u can’t change the direction of the wind but u can always change the direction of your sail” that phrase encourage me till today! 
I rmb during my o lvl day,a teacher who taught me math- mr Leong is there for me till the last min. Even when we are q-ing outside the class waiting to go in and sit for exam already, he saw me/ and he said ” Jessie, quick come still got time. Faster” and he go through the last bit of math prob w me. Miracle-ly, whatever he taught me that morn all came out. 

I went back to school everyday to revise for o level . Whenever my science teacher- mr lau walked pass me, he ne’er
Fail to ask ” jessie u need help, got any questions?  If cos, my ans is always yes :x hehes. 
He will guide me one on one, stay w me till5 or 6 plus in school . Even when there are time he want to vomit blood alr~ he still teach me patiently :)
Is him, that let me feel actually physic is Fun and I began to like physic :) 

Teacher who had helped me in my personal life and guide me about life- mr soh. He is just like a friendly grandpapa.when I’m having financial issue he helped me along the way/
Not forgetting mr kong, whom I can never forget. He saved my life, if not for him.. If he didn’t grab me
Down that
Year I might not be here posting all these. I might not lead a wonderful life now. Thank to him that I can lead such a GREAT life now :)

In my poly year , every single year I’m blessed with good mentors. To me, they are like teacher and give good advices! 
I have mentors who guide me patiently in my modules, give me opportunity to shine and excel in school, concern about my financial Issue.. Try to help me and intro me a good job whereby I can Learn  many thing. 
Is opportunity after opportunity every year.

I really thank them and am really grateful to all these teachers. Once again!
Happy teacher day! :))

Teaching!
Happy belated teacher day!!

Was sharing w my friends abt my teaching exp w my students and it kinda brought me back to many memories…

I don’t like teaching, many ppl know this. But I did it cos is a good earning source , of cos I still teach with right attitude cos I don’t wish to ruin their future education :x

Miracle-ly, I don’t since when it started… The dislike feeling I had for teaching become neutral and slowly I even think of Different ways and games to teach the kids.
In short, slowly becoming to like teaching.

I guess is the kids grades, and their attitude that changes my attitude in teaching.
They are willing to learn, although lazy at times.
Their good improvement grade of A and B motivate me to teach them even more.

My student told me before, ” don’t need to get me a present, cos is expensive and is what I should do too” I can’t rmb the exact line, but is something along those line/

Really need to thanks to that 2 kids in the photo. Their attitude, improvement grades and their cute character kinda change my perception in teaching :))

I got reminded how blissful I was in my school days even up to now.
From pri to sec and even to poly life now.: every year every sem. I nv fail to get a teacher who is always there for me ans guide me patiently.
I’m really one lucky gal!
In pri sch days, a teacher encourage us.. And give us a bookmark with Winnie pooh cartoon on a boat written ” u can’t change the direction of the wind but u can always change the direction of your sail” that phrase encourage me till today!
I rmb during my o lvl day,a teacher who taught me math- mr Leong is there for me till the last min. Even when we are q-ing outside the class waiting to go in and sit for exam already, he saw me/ and he said ” Jessie, quick come still got time. Faster” and he go through the last bit of math prob w me. Miracle-ly, whatever he taught me that morn all came out.

I went back to school everyday to revise for o level . Whenever my science teacher- mr lau walked pass me, he ne’er
Fail to ask ” jessie u need help, got any questions? If cos, my ans is always yes :x hehes.
He will guide me one on one, stay w me till5 or 6 plus in school . Even when there are time he want to vomit blood alr~ he still teach me patiently :)
Is him, that let me feel actually physic is Fun and I began to like physic :)

Teacher who had helped me in my personal life and guide me about life- mr soh. He is just like a friendly grandpapa.when I’m having financial issue he helped me along the way/
Not forgetting mr kong, whom I can never forget. He saved my life, if not for him.. If he didn’t grab me
Down that
Year I might not be here posting all these. I might not lead a wonderful life now. Thank to him that I can lead such a GREAT life now :)

In my poly year , every single year I’m blessed with good mentors. To me, they are like teacher and give good advices!
I have mentors who guide me patiently in my modules, give me opportunity to shine and excel in school, concern about my financial Issue.. Try to help me and intro me a good job whereby I can Learn many thing.
Is opportunity after opportunity every year.

I really thank them and am really grateful to all these teachers. Once again!
Happy teacher day! :))

Love Dance!

I had a chance to dance when I was young, but am not discipline enough.
But now, I had grow up. 
I knw I need to catch hold of what I want and need to be done. 

My main focus will still be on singing, but if I ever do have a chance to learn dance… For sure, I will :)

Every beat,tempo,
Movement of the dance, dance out my inner expression. 
Just like singing, every word , every melody touch my heart and express what reality can’t explain sometime. 

To me, for me, music Is my pillar , my support, my all- my life. 
I am not a good singer, but I dare to say my over 10 years of effort paid off. cos compare to 10 years back, when everyone thought I cant sing, look down on me, today I made it.
I had my first performance to hundred of people not long ago. The first performance and professional judge’s comment had given me the assurance and motivation to keep going on. 
All the up and down I face in my dream over these 10 years,Had strengthen me. 

I won’t just stop here, I will keep moving on and dare to dream, dare to fly.
Disappointment may fall in, but i believe these are the keys that will help me
Breakthrough and bring me up to another new level. 

What’s more, and what’s greater is that I have a God who can make all things possible for me :D

" with God, nth is possible"
And I believe ” I can do all things through christ who strengthens me”
I know He will never forsake me in my weaknesses. 

Even if I did not succeed, I am still happy. Cos I know I tried, and I believe He always have a beta and greater plan for me ahead :D

Love Dance!

I had a chance to dance when I was young, but am not discipline enough.
But now, I had grow up.
I knw I need to catch hold of what I want and need to be done.

My main focus will still be on singing, but if I ever do have a chance to learn dance… For sure, I will :)

Every beat,tempo,
Movement of the dance, dance out my inner expression.
Just like singing, every word , every melody touch my heart and express what reality can’t explain sometime.

To me, for me, music Is my pillar , my support, my all- my life.
I am not a good singer, but I dare to say my over 10 years of effort paid off. cos compare to 10 years back, when everyone thought I cant sing, look down on me, today I made it.
I had my first performance to hundred of people not long ago. The first performance and professional judge’s comment had given me the assurance and motivation to keep going on.
All the up and down I face in my dream over these 10 years,Had strengthen me.

I won’t just stop here, I will keep moving on and dare to dream, dare to fly.
Disappointment may fall in, but i believe these are the keys that will help me
Breakthrough and bring me up to another new level.

What’s more, and what’s greater is that I have a God who can make all things possible for me :D

" with God, nth is possible"
And I believe ” I can do all things through christ who strengthens me”
I know He will never forsake me in my weaknesses.

Even if I did not succeed, I am still happy. Cos I know I tried, and I believe He always have a beta and greater plan for me ahead :D